Bee content?

Yesterday went to kitty house for food, brooze, mahjong... suppose to be fun but it was a tragic!~!~ First of all we are having bbq in the house! BBQ in the house outside the balcony and its a enclose one by the way. They brought those disposable bbq pit.Ekkkkkkkkkkkk, house no lighter, no matches coz all of us are non-smoker. So we use the stove to light the pit, but it did not light well and the charcoal can't fully burn...as we thought lah.. so we light up another one when xuefeng came with the lighter... it also does not burn... as we thought... so I decided to cook up those food that can be cook by the stove. Kit's house is really very bare min. so is her kitchen... btw althought I don't cook as most will presume.. but I'm very very anal about the kitchen!~ I can't stand kitchen that is dirty, messy and there is no proper cooking utensils!~!~ *faint* I was cooking in a "frying pan" that is wobbled!!~ how to cook!~!~ *faint* I manage to cook the mushroom and the chicken up... ya the chicken like mega big lor!!! how can cook on the small bbq pit? it will take forever to get it cook! Finally, the bbq pit got fire!~! well the instruction say it take about 20min for the fire to start leh, ke ke!~! so ah bee was bbq-ing, I was cooking~!~ and the rest! busy play mahjong!~~! argh!~!~ end up, I cook, I wash, I mop the floor! Ah bee cook! ah bee wash, Ah bee mop the floor at the bbq area. NOT fun lor!!~!~

If you think that the nightmare is over... NOOOOOOOOO its just started!~! I brought a bottle of wine that I brought at huntervalley. As usual, ah bee been alcholic drank the beer and the wine.... and she got drunk!~!~!~! kept beating me and xue feng.... that is not all!~!~ coz in the afternoon she and kitty went to see a fortune teller which is quite accurate, and the fortune teller told her about andy which is lazy, and she can't pamper him too much or else she will have trouble next time... these some how reassurance some of her thinking..... well from the start of her r/s I already felt she does not really so much in love with andy compared to roy and now she said she is planning to get married... well if things have come to that stage, I wish her well in her marriage.... but she herself also did told us that she does not felt so intensive in love with him but after spending so many years together, its just nature that the love just develop slowly and if he do ask her, she will say yes also.

So is she contented?? Is it good that someone love you and pamper more than you do? rather than someone turn around and stab you at your heart? well most of the time, we don't get what we want... someone who can fit your bill- sensitve, understanding, adverterous, love you, pamper you, romantic, etc, the list is never ending. she is not the only one that I'm worried... dar dar is another one. He is married, yes he is... but the way he treated this marriage some how worried me... he married for the sack of marrying because the flat is here... they dont spend much after marriage because he is so busy with his work and so is she, and it does not help that their off days are not the same.... and even he is free he will spend most of his time playing mahjong with his friends or warcraft... so is he contented also?

What makes one say YES to marriage?? I know very well the fear I always have.. althought I wanted to settle down (well I have reach the marriage age)... but at the back of my mind... all these people around me... including my own parent... makes me develop a subconscious fear for marriage. What makes one so sure that the one you are marrying is the one that will love you till the end of time? What happen this biggest gamble of your life, you lost it? Will you be happy? Will both of us who lived at two different places come together as one under the same roof, will you be able to live with that person, compromise the other person's habit? There is so many things to consider.. or are there? No idea and I have not come to a crossroad like ah bee now whether to take this road of marriage ahead of her.....

Planning to go to see a fortune teller also next weekend... I realise when a person have come to the bottom of their life... all they wanted to hear from someone who knows the "future" to tell them their life is going to OKAY! MOVE ON!~!~